Sleeping pills.

Can I just say how grateful I am for sleeping pills?!?!?
I would not be getting through the last couple days without them thats for sure.

I have finally figured out how to cover the dark circles under my eyes.
I think stress, no sleep, not eating--its finally taking its toll on me.
As if the stress isn't enough.

you know when you have to make hard decisions?
like following your heart or your gut?
or hurting your loved ones or hurting yourself?

Its hard enough to choose between cereal or yogurt for breakfast.

There is an internal battle to always please everyone else.
But it's just not ideal. Making decisions.

I've learned a thing or two about decision making.
Its a rare thing for EVERYONE to be supportive.

When you feel lost, when no place feels like home anymore.
Home was with your parents, and then it was with your husband.
But then you don't have a husband anymore..
& you think home can be with your parents again..
But it really can't...
Its coming up on three years that I would have been in Utah...& it's hard to be anywhere else.

I don't know, I just think sometimes we have to make choices, and learn lessons.
I think sometimes the lessons are for us, and sometimes they are for others involved.
All I know is, I don't want anymore regrets. I want to know I gave my best.
And my all, and if for some reason, whatever I go for doesn't work out...
people can say, I told you so..