dear past me,

Its one of those days when I've thought a lot about my past. I've thought a lot about life before marriage, before graduation, before growing up. I never realized how quick things can happen, and how quick things can change.

I remember waking up and it being the first day of high school.
I remember walking into my first class, and seeing a million familiar faces.
& I remember the feeling of relief I had.
Then, in the blink of an eye, I remember waking up, and it being graduation day.
I remember walking across that stage. Scared. But so ready to take on the world.

Today, I thought about my friends. I thought about the people that got me through.

Amanda, and Renee. What would I have done without them?!?! My funniest, most exciting memories are with them. Whether it was beach trips, or late night dance parties. From heartbreak to butterflies. They were there for it all. When I think of High School, I think of them.

Then there is Cody. Although, I knew him a lot longer than High School. It's then that we became the closest. He was always there. Sometimes, even when I didn't want him to be. Still to this day he is like a brother. Harsh when I needed it, even more so, loving when I needed it. He made sure I was included, every time. Mostly I remember, all the things he did and said that got me where I am.
(so excited for his homecoming, december18,2012) When I think of High School, I think of him.

But now, High School is over.

Now I am married to the most amazing person I know. And he's always got my back now. He's my love, and support. My back bone when I need one, and everything and more than I could ever ask for. He takes care of me. He's my best friend. He's my lover. He's my better half. He makes me want to be a better person. And he helps me to see the good in everything. Sometimes things are hard. Sometimes life throws us curve balls. And without J Tyler, I don't know how I would get through them. Together, we get through anything that comes our way.

Today I am grateful for the people I had in High School to get me through, to carry me when I needed it, to be my love and support. And today I am grateful for my husband. And that he is here, when those other people can't be. He is my world. I'm grateful for the people in my life. Amanda, Renee, and Cody. They will always be my best friends. I will always love them. And when I think of High School, I will always think of them. We will always keep in touch. We will always be apart of the big milestones in each other lives. College graduation, marriage, kids. Whatever it may be. Whether near or far. Life has taken us miles apart, but they are some of my people. And they always will be.

JTyler is my person now. My number one. My always and forever.

Today I was so grateful for the friends in my life, for the friends that helped me through the big things, the little things. All the things.

I have always been so blessed.