This break up has been so different from all the rest.
And I think it's changed me the most.
When I think about my other "heartbreaks,"
I wouldn't even really call them that. I think of HS.
I'm still young. So that wasn't really that long ago for me.
The break ups I experienced then, were easy.I mean, I didn't think they were easy then.
But I veg'd out with my friends. And shopped with my mom.
And moved on.
Then, I moved to Utah, and got married.
And that's a completely different story.
Because that heart was different, too.
But not this kind of different.
This heart break has completely changed my heart all together.
When you are 'older' and marriage is on your mind.
And you are building a life with someone.
Sharing a house, and pets. And every part of yourself.
When that all ends, then what do you do?
You just wake up and don't know what to do.
You aren't in highschool anymore, and you don't
have football games to look forward too, you don't
get to just play with friends and shop with mom.
You have to get up, everyday.
You have to do your hair and make up and go to work.
And pay your bills. And go to school.
And study, and basically function like nothings changed.
WHEN EVERYTHING HAS CHANGED.
You have to keep living, when life doesn't seem livable.
